Make a Wish

[James Parkinson]

If you could have one Work wish fulfilled what would it be? I know we're all supposed to say, I wish to remember myself, but do we really? If we really wish to remember ourselves why do we not do so more often? If you look at your life what do you see? Do you see someone who wishes to remember himself? If not then what?

[Colin Blundell]

Steve, I think that's my wish too: always to be able to return to Nothingness after bouts of choosing to have to be something - Relating-I, Fulfilling-obligations-I, Agreeing-to-commit-to-something-I. For me, the paradox is that being firmly rooted in Nothingness, as Mr G advises somewhere, I can, when I'm on Top Form occasionally, make reasonably distinct tracks for every Something there is. Yes, and after such a regular foray I'd still wish to be able to take myself back into Sacred Nothingness!

[Matt]

Maybe willingness has something to do with allowing that part of myself which is resistant to the idea of change to be influenced by higher forces. With so many Is and so many wills (might as well add in so many wishes too) it brings me back to the not knowing, not being able to do. IF I could do then my will might be done. As it stands now things happen without my will or my intention. So, I think there is a difference between Will and willingness. Will gets things done. Willingness seems to suggest that I must submit to something higher than myself. It is a scary place to be because of the very real possibilty of being mislead. The monk gives up his will and learns to obey. I am not a monk, but I want to know what I can learn from this. Am I just splitting hairs here?

I think Ousepnsky says that all centers are actually working at the same time, it is the connections between them that are flawed, and it is from these flawed connections that each center knows not what to do and knows not what the other is doing i.e ignorance is so central to our state of being. Efforts then, can be used to strenthen the connection, but these efforts take energy. This energy can be taken from the little accumulators or the big accumulator. If taken from the big, a greater effort can be made.
Right now, all my efforts are aimed at self observation. What else could it possibly be. I am ignorant of the workings of the machine and am unable to do anything about anything that I know nothing about. So why not find something of value out?

[Nathan Dougherty]

When I wish it's because I want something that I don't have, which is where most of my misery comes from. So I wish I could stop wishing and stay in the moment

[Cheryl Dunkin]

Personally, I would wish to have deeper relationships, I am still working on figuring that out.

[James Parkinson]

I found this the other day and thought of this discussion. It's something Gurdjieff is reported to have said or written.

There are two kinds of doing--automatic and doing what you 'wish'. Take a small thing which you 'wish' to do and cannot do and make this your God. Let nothing interfere. If you 'wish', you can. Without wishing you never 'can'. 'Wish' is the most powerful thing in the world.

[Shane Fera]

I think, right now, my wish is a fear-driven wish. Fear of the unknown, change, unreadiness.
My fear is why I'm hear. To learn to understand, or as you say, remember myself.

My wish is to persist beyond that time we generally stop persisting.

I feel like a wave in an ocean here. I ebb and flow, and always find myself finding my way to these teachings. I am a muddle of unconscious action. I see it, and I feel it, but at my core I am a sphere.

That is a good question, James.

[Craig Jennings]

What first comes to mind is that I see myself constantly pining after some life goal that I feel slipping away. Or, in a mopey sadness at the realization of seeing a life goal that is already slipped away. "Oh, poor me" "maybe I could come back again and have another chance" boo hoo..

I would love to stop constantly falling into this barrel of swill. If I could remember myself, perhaps I would experience a great deal of less stress.

[James Parkinson]

So then, Craig, what exactly is your wish? Do you wish to stop returning to your vomit like a dog or do you wish to remember yourself so you don't continue to return to your vomit? Is there a difference? Perhaps wishing to remember yourself would be easier in connection with some smaller Aim, like wishing to stop repeating behaviors you have observed are negative, draining and damaging to you and those around you. Good start.

[Craig Jennings]

Yeah, that's it. I wish to stop returning to my vomit, like a dog, to stop seeing that I have just put my wife through an evening of negativity spuing out of my whole being, that is after it's happened. I want to see it,, and through my self in front of it, before it happens,, to have the courage and the fore site to SHUT UP!

[James Parkinson]

Yes, that's involving the emotional center in the process. You have some valuation there. You have some desire to not go with the I's that don't really care about your wife or anything other than spewing negativity when it pleases them. It's a solid Work Aim. Whether you fail or not won't matter because you will be making progress in the area of awakening. It may be a long time before you can stop it before it starts but you will be seeing it more and the light will help you. Don't give up. Keeping refining your aim, keep it alive.

[Bodhi Greenman]

I wish I could keep my word.

I wish that when I say that I am going to do something, I do it.

No excuses, no circumstances which made it difficult so I can justify it when I don't. None of this, I didn't remember. Or I was too busy. Or lazy. Or apathetic.

Just plain and simple, do what I say. Regardless.

[James Parkinson]

I hear you. Of course, if we were one we could keep our word just plain and simple, but we're not one and not keeping our word reminds us of this. *smile*